Sacred Shamanic Healing, Part 2

by Captain Bill

Sacred Shamanic Healing, Part 2

A guest post by John Ed Ellerd,

John Ed Ellerd at the Infinit Light sacred shamanic healing ceremony

John Ed Ellerd at the Infinit Light sacred shamanic healing ceremony

So here we go with another hellacious night, feeling like every nerve in my body is being scraped with sandpaper and then alcohol poured in to compound the experience of every cell in my body with no relief in sight. It feels more like being stung by millions of ants at the same time lasting forever. At least this is what my mind is trying to convince me of at the very moment the experience is at it’s upper most peak. So I begin trying to focus on the fact that nothing in this dimension lasts forever and I begin thanking God for that. Then at this very moment multitudes of faces begin coming in from nowhere, in my face, frowning, snarling, brows furrowed, angry, confrontational and unrelenting.I open my eyes and they are gone thank God, but as soon as I close my eyes again the faces are back even more relenting than before. How do I get relief from these antagonists? What should I do to try to appease them? Tremendous fear is also a large part of the experience. Nerve racking fear like a dark cloak challenging my very existence. And of course this is the point at which my mind kicks in with a resounding “YOU ARE GOING TO DIE! YOU ARE GOING TO DIE”! I spend most of the next day in fear of this inevitable climax to my adventure in the Amazon before it occurs to me the very ego screaming in my ears is the culprit I have come into this very experience to rid myself of along with perhaps hundreds, maybe even thousands of years of lies and deceitful illusions being implanted into the collective consciousness of the masses. What have I done to deserve this begs the pathetic ever so victimized ego. And then I ask myself, whatever did anyone do to deserve the horrible things I had so selfishly dished out to them. After all the spirits of ayahuasca were purging Me. As things come back into perspective later in the day, I am ashamed, humbled, repentant and again purging myself with tears flowing through the day every time a thought or emotion surfaces from the depths of my soul. At this point it becomes very cleansing as every cell in my body that has carried these memories is now able to function without the clogging effects of the heavy dark negative energetic filters I have been accumulating throughout this life time. After purging heaviness/darkness comes light/lightness. Hallelujah! At this point in the shift I am beginning to learn how to allow the purging/transmuting experience to release the darkness and move into lightness. I am also becoming aware of the spirit of darkness and beginning to accept and love the dark negative energies for without this experience I could not appreciate the light/lightness. Thank you darkness, I love you. You have caused me to run to the light! I no longer fear you for you are the guide to the light and the lightness of my soul. Once again I have experienced a shift and realized I have no fears. OMG! What a concept! Oh fears, what an insidious web of malignant deceit you weave. I now understand my position in the light and in me is no darkness. Darkness cannot cloak light, for it can only move into spaces where there is no awareness of light. Darkness has no energy except what we in unawareness give to it through fear. Fear is the vehicle in which darkness moves. Now I have a new found love for not only love and light but also fear and darkness,thus becoming more balanced in Life. Oh death where is your sting, oh grave where is your victory? Eternal beings of light are in fact eternal. So be it. So it is!

Sacred Shamanic Healing, Part 2

A guest post by John Ed Ellerd

Be sure to read the first installment of this series at, Sacred Shamanic Healing;

For those of you who have considered or feel drawn to such an experience please feel free to mention you read this article on the Captain’s Blog, and click this link to the web site of Infinite Light, Sacred Shamanic Healing With Ayahuasca In The Amazon, in order to get more information on how you may have your own experience deep within the Peruvian jungles just off the Amazon River.

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